Thursday, July 12, 2012

Break Barriers



Athletics breaks barriers; barriers we may have never noticed existed.  We may not have built a particular wall between 'us' and 'them', but until we have the opportunity to recognize such a wall exists, as small or as big as it is, do we find out how similar we are.  "Finisher" has no age, sex, race, denomination or disability attached to it.  Anyone that crosses the finish line of an Ironman within 17 hours has earned the right to call themselves an Ironman.

            Rod trains and races by feel; he has the patience, discipline and attention to detail to notice how his new pair of Sauconys, with an 8 mm heel-to-toe drop, are working different muscles, higher in his calves and up through the thighs.  He very accurately estimates pace on the run and speed on the bike without a heart rate monitor, stop watch or GPS.  Rod can judge distance and space by listening, whether it's entering a new room or on a run with someone.  Fourteen mile treadmill runs and mile long swims are the norm as he builds up his training for Ironman Wisconsin.  His resume reads something like this: 3 sprint triathlons, an Olympic triathlon, 2 half marathons, a 30k, 3 marathons and a half Ironman.  His goal for Ironman has always been the same; "have a good time and enjoy the day," a modest goal for an athlete who generally places in the top 10 of his age group.  Recently, at the Denver Triathlon, Rod chose to talk with friends and enjoy his beer over running on stage and collecting his award when his named was called.  He was the only person in his division for the race, so he modestly described it as getting "first and last at the same time."  When he and I crossed the finish line of the Denver Triathlon, we were greeted by the man handing out medals.  He put one over Rod's head then turned to me to give me one to which I commented "I don't think I get one" and before the man with the medals could respond, Rod offered me his. 

            Rod was born blind; he can't tell you the difference between the color red and green, but if you ask him how to brew your own beer he could go in to great detail of each step.  He owns his own home, washes clothes, makes food and does yard work.  The more time I've spent and corresponded with Rod the more I've realized that there are very few differences between us.  He enjoys the rush of running, biking and training.  He feeds off the enthusiasm and excitement of a crowd during a race as they cheer him on, all the same as me or anyone else that competes.  The only "differences" I've been able to find between us are based on necessity; he prefers metal cups/spoons so he can feel how hot or cold the liquid is inside of it.  When filling a cup or glass he uses the tip of a finger to gauge how full the cup is.  These "differences" have nothing to do with being an athlete, competing or training.  Rod is very gifted yet very modest, if you have computer issues, he can help; he's a problem solver and analytic.  Many of our conversations are talking race strategy.  I've been boring him for months talking about the Ironman bike course and something new I noticed while riding it.  We've discussed how many hills we think we can use the weight and momentum of a tandem to roll up and how many hills we will have to suck it up and climb in what he calls the 'Granny Gear'.  We talk cadence, taking advantage of the flats, heart rate and how many peanut butter and jelly sandwiches to pack in our special needs bags for race day.  If you are lucky enough to spend time with Rod you soon forget any differences you may have thought existed.   In my case after the Denver Triathlon, I asked him if he preferred red or green grapes.  He joked about the color and as I figured he would, offered an accurate description of the difference between the two tastes, sweet and sour.

If you mention that you're training for Ironman you get varied looks of surprise, astonishment, and encouragement.  When I tell them that I'm not actually doing Ironman, that I'm training to guide a blind athlete, the look goes somewhat to confusion; followed by a curious "How's that work?"  Guiding an athlete doesn't require any special training, it really only takes confidence and your willingness to ask questions.  Different athletes prefer different amounts of information.  I've guided for one athlete who preferred a lot of information about the terrain as we ran; crack up, crack down (referring to larger differences in height between sidewalk squares), man-hole cover, rocks. . . other athletes just want the big picture only pointing out more drastic changes like an upcoming sidewalk ramp.  For guiding a triathlon the biggest change for me is the bike.  I'd never ridden a tandem let alone be a captain (tandem speak for sitting in the front) of one.  Each phase of riding a tandem has its own nuances and things to be aware of; starting in sync and getting clipped in, stopping - unclipping and biggest of all weight distribution when cornering.  There's a certain amount of finesse that's needed to use the stoker's (tandem speak for person in the back) weight to help with corners instead of fighting against it.  The Denver Triathlon greatly helped with my confidence as the bike course was a triple loop that had multiple tight turns including a 180 degree U turn on a two lane road.  Rod and I also participated in the Horribly Hilly Hundreds, which provided me much practice at the down hills.  For a race like the Ironman there has to be a level of comfort between athlete and guide and through conversation, email and time spent together I feel Rod and I have achieved that.  I keep him posted on my runs, race results and training to continue to calm him about my abilities and he lets me know how his training is going.  Rod's goal, as previously mentioned, is to have a good time and enjoy the day.  Mine has always been to train hard enough that he doesn't have to carry me across the finish line.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Mental barriers



There is no feeling like a thigh cramping mid stride on a long run. I can tell you that it feels like being shot in the leg, or to try and fight it off by stretching then continuing running concentrating on trying to run with 'relaxed' muscles. I can tell you that it is possible to run after pulling up in pain, but until you do it yourself it's hard to believe.

So far this year I've pushed myself harder than ever. I've never worried that my body would break down, I've remained confident that I can push through because I'm being smart and prepared with what I'm doing. My biggest barriers are mental. I've ridden over 500 miles this year yet my bike hasn't moved an inch. I've spent hours spinning and going nowhere. Every day I wake up and have to bike, that represents the hardest thing I have to do that day whether it's a quick 15 mile spin or 60 miles. It's not because my butt's going to hurt or my calf muscles are sore, it's because I know I'm going to get bored. I can't tell you how painful it is to sit in the aero position and watch the sweat beads on my arms grow until they pool together enough to have gravity pull them off my arm on to my towel. Time on my bike is my worst enemy. I've cut rides short because I couldn't take it anymore. But finishing those rides give me the feeling of my biggest training accomplishments.

Some times I have to remind myself that every mental victory spent in training gets deposited in my race bank. My body may break down, I may cramp, I may get a flat tire but having that race bank full come race day means that none of things that may happen during the race are going to prevent me from finishing because I've over come in training. I've passed those tests and I haven't backed down. I can't plan for everything and I can't experience everything that may happen during a race but if I make it a point to finish what I start in training, it won't matter.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

2012



I'm not sure what 2012 will bring. I know that I will do a number of races; triathlons, marathons etc. and I'm confident I will do better in those than I ever have do to the increase in training for the Ironman but it's not going to matter if I don't bring more people along for the ride. What I learned in 2011 through writing this blog is that it's not about me. I'm the one doing the typing here and putting my thoughts down but the stuff I write about floats around in my head all the time, I can't stop thinking about these types of things with running and training and the emotions and feelings that go along with it. I hope that the things I type may bring you the courage or give you that nudge to push forward to help you finish something you started a while ago or have re-started time and time again. My health and fitness has become a very important part of my life, it's not always easy to balance family and training but like so many things in life it's about choices; what you choose to do and make time for. I love coming home from a morning run and having my daughter call me stinky and then proceed to stretch with me then tell me to go take a shower. On Thanksgiving Day after eating, Emmie and her cousin's were outside playing and she started running. I asked what she was doing and she said she was in a race. I asked if she was going super fast and she said "no, I'm stinky." If my daughter's introduction to running and being healthy starts with associating me running to being stinky, I'm all for it.

I wish everyone a happy and healthy 2012 and most importantly hope that I help you in some way. I plan to type more and stay in touch as I train more and more and prepare for September's Ironman with Rod. Set a goal, work to it and bring as many people with as you can.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Confidence? Arrogance?


Brave? Ballsy? Inspiration? How do you describe a person who decides to do something for someone else that they've never done for their self? I've heard these as well as other adjectives to describe what I'm doing with the upcoming Ironman. No, I haven't done an Ironman before; yes there will be someone depending on me to be able to complete the 140.6 mile trek; yes he is aware of the circumstances as well. If I had to come up with the adjective that I thought best describes the next 10 month's adventure, I'd say it would be accountability. I can honestly say that I have not reached my potential as a runner or triathlete; and I am 100% certain that that is my own fault. I have never made myself 100% accountable for my training. I have always done a 'good job' training. I feel I've been prepared for all the races I've done but I've never set myself up to be the best marathoner or triathlete that I can be. Now, I don't have a choice. I knew in my heart that I would put forth my best training and dedication if I wasn't doing it for myself. Why do so many runners fund raise??? Accountability. No one wants to put their self out there for a cause and then fall on their face in failure. Is there pressure? Hell yeah there's pressure, but it's not pressure to do something I can't do. I haven't volunteered to do something that I am not capable of doing because I have learned that I am the only thing holding me back. I have not qualified for the Boston Marathon because of what's between my ears; when it's cold and the sun isn't up yet and my alarm goes off, I can hit snooze and 'justify' it to myself; but for the next 10 months I don't have that luxury. But it's not pressure, it's peace of mind. Peace of mind in knowing that I am able. Peace of mind in knowing that I will not hold myself back. Peace of mind that athletes like Rod (blind - multiple marathons and a half Ironman) and Kathy (visually impaired - marathon and multiple half marathons) complete, show that it isn't right for someone like me to have low expectations of those with disabilities. Peace of mind knowing that when everything is said and done and it's the end of the race Sunday September 9th, 2012 and I cross that finish line, that those that don't know me, those that don't read this blog, those who aren't my Facebook friends, they won't know who I am, they will see the person that's inspiring me to do all of this and they will only know that I was accountable.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

My Run Around: CAN'T

My Run Around: CAN'T: CAN you?

CAN'T


You try explaining to this kid the definition of 'CAN'T'. I CAN'T take credit for finding this picture but since I saw it I CAN'T stop thinking about it. There's so many emotions and thoughts that fill my mind when I picture this boy with a smile of pure joy, enjoying something so simple yet so important to him. I used to work for a guy that was full of one-liners and fortune-cookie wisdom, but he did have one saying that stuck with me, he would say; "When you question whether you CAN do something like "CAN I run a mile, or CAN I walk to the street corner" simply add HOW to the beginning of the statement; HOW CAN I do something I thought was once impossible for me? This young boy is the definition of HOW and doesn't know CAN'T.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Some things just make sense



For those of you not familiar with the registration process for Ironman Wisconsin it goes something like this: Saturday prior to race-day Sunday all Ironman participants for this year’s race can register for next year's. Sunday the race takes place: 7 am – 12 am. Monday at 9 am the doors open for all volunteers to stand in line and register for next year’s race. Another line forms for those who weren’t volunteers but hope to register for next year’s race. Assuming there are places left after those three registration types, online registration for anyone else becomes available.

I decided I would register for 2012 Ironman last week. I volunteered Sunday on the bike portion of the race that went through Verona, worked about 5 hours setting up and passing out water bottles to competitors as they raced through town. Monday I dropped Mason off at school and drove down town to stand in line at the Monona Terrace in hopes that there’d be a spot for me. I got in, I registered. Then I waited. . .

Working at a running store provides you the opportunity to meet various people. One person in particular caught my interest. She works with the local branch of Achilles International. They have a great mission statement: “Our mission is to enable people with all types of disabilities to participate in mainstream athletics in order to promote personal achievement, enhance self esteem, and lower barriers to living a fulfilling life.” In conversation with this individual I started to inquire about how I could help. I was given an email for a local woman who likes to run; I’ll call her “Katie”. Katie’s run 5k’s, half-marathons and triathlons. Katie is blind, so for any triathlon, half-marathon or jog around the block she needs a guide. There are things in life I’ve taken for granted and there are things I’ve never considered; being a visually impaired or blind person and loving running is a situation that never crossed my mind. I’ve had injuries that prevented me from training, cold mornings where I didn’t want to get out of bed, but never had I considered needing someone else to be there if I wanted to go run a couple miles. Through corresponding with Katie we discussed a friend of hers that I saw at the Door County Half Iron, who’s blind. On Friday night of last week Katie gave me his phone number.

Saturday I had my first conversation with “Rob”, who wants to do Ironman. Monday Rob’s daughter was waiting for 12:00 to try and register her dad for Ironman. 12:30 my phone rang, it was Rob, minutes later I’m emailing the coordinators of Ironman to open up my confirmed reserved spot so I could be Rob’s guide.

My point isn’t to brag, or say that what I’m doing is great or better than doing the race alone, it’s because it made sense. To me races aren’t about the hard-ware you get for finishing or the goody-bag you get when you register, it’s about the feelings you have when you see the finish line coming, to know that you will finish, the thoughts that rush to your mind, the memories, the people, everything in to a few great moments and then that feeling of finishing. You can’t lose those feelings like a tee shirt, those moments don’t ever get scuffed or broken like a medal. I feel that crossing the line with Rob will have a bigger impact on me than crossing it by myself; that’s something that can’t be lost or taken, that’s what I’m dedicating the next 12 months to.

Dedicate yourself to something where the only gain you have is in your mind and in your heart.